the anxiety dance

I’m feeling sad

alone

empty

I can’t help it

The darkness consumes me

invades me

annoys me

And I can’t find the little pieces of light

that I once had here with me

I’m helpless

lost inside myself

I thought that you’d be here by now

but all I can see is them

coming towards me, consuming my soul

All I hear is their voices in my head

loud, pounding

I can’t push them away

I never can push them away

so I just wait

It looks like you won’t be coming today

and I guess it’s okay

If I were you

I would run away from me too

I would run away…

I’m scared of my future

I’m scared of who I will become

I’m scared of you

*escrito em 2013